Nope, I will not promise you a post every day (especially since I already missed yesterday). Normally I’d be happy to – in fact, I often post every day. But this month, I need the freedom to sulk and pout, and just be uncreative and occasionally uncommunicative. Yes, sometimes I might be found curled up in my bed with the covers over my head instead of at the computer being all friendly. It’s not the pending winter – no, I rather enjoyed the fresh layer of snow. It’s not the restlessness I talked about a little while ago. It’s not even my sleepy soul.

It’s something else entirely, and I’m dying to talk about it, but I can’t. Let’s just say it’s ugly and unpleasant, and my name will probably be dragged through the mud a few times in the coming months and perhaps even years. And, starting next week, I will probably need to make a few too many trips to another province.

I’ll just say that sometimes it’s really, really hard being in management. Most of the time, I enjoy being in a position of leadership, but some days, it’s not worth the “big bucks”. Some days, I just want to be a working stiff who shows up in the morning, counts widgets, and then goes home at the end of the day. Some mornings, when I wake up from a nightmare brought on by all of this like I did this morning, I’d rather stay in bed.

On another note entirely, I’ve been reading Torch by Cheryl Strayed (recommended by Laura before she disappeared from the face of the earth under the allegations that she was a fake), and I have to say the woman (Cheryl Strayed, that is) knows how to get alot of things right. Like grief, for example. Like the deep trench left in your life after the loss of a parent. And like the betrayal you feel when you watch a parent move on to another relationship.

Here’s a quote:
“…as the weeks passed and then turned to months, Claire’s sorrow thickened, deepened. She came to see that her grief did not have an end, or if it did, she would not be delivered there. Grief was not a road or a river or a sea but a world, and she would have to live there now. The world was different for each person, for her and for Joshua and for Bruce. She couldn’t say what Joshua’s or Bruce’s was, but hers was a place vast and wide. It was everywhere, went on forever. The sky at night in a place famous for its night sky: Montana or the Sahara Desert. And her face eternally tipped up to that sky.”

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