by Heather Plett | May 26, 2006 | Uncategorized
First of all, I arrived at work on my bike (in biking attire), went to the bathroom to change into my work attire, and discovered that I’d forgotten to bring a shirt to wear under my blazer. So here I am, wearing my stinky biking t-shirt under a businessy suit. And wouldn’t ya know it – there’s a stain on the collar of the shirt because I wore this particular stinky sweaty biking t-shirt the last time I coloured my hair.
And why am I WEARING a businessy suit when I usually dress more casually? Well, I had to “work the booth” at a United Church conference this morning, and thus had to do some of that small talk that I loathe. Standing at a booth trying to engage people who are trying to avoid your eye is not my idea of a good time, ESPECIALLY when I’m feeling self-conscious about wearing a stained stinky sweaty bike shirt.
AND as I was walking to the conference – a little late because I’d tried to buy a cheap replacement shirt at a bargain store but had no luck – I decided to jaywalk to get there a little faster. I started to dart across the street, and realized that I would be obstructing the traffic that was turning and had the right of way. Not only that, but one of the cars stopped at the intersection was a POLICE CAR. Fortunately, he had better things to do than give me a jaywalking ticket.
I think I’ll spend the rest of the afternoon in my office hiding in my stinky stained not-so-sweaty-anymore biking shirt.
by Heather Plett | May 25, 2006 | Uncategorized
With 2 of our daughters on soccer teams which play on alternate nights, we spend a majority of our evenings sitting on the sidelines of soccer fields these days. It’s not a bad way to spend an evening. We usually bike there and back, so it’s been a great way to get the family out for bike rides. It’s been a pleasant spring – very little rain, and just a few really cool days.
Because we usually go as a family, Maddie has no choice but to come along. She doesn’t mind, especially when it’s a field with a play-structure close by or when Julie’s best friend’s little sister is there for her to play with.
Last night was one of those nights when there was neither play structure nor best friend’s little sister in the near vicinity. So, because she’s not particularly enthralled with soccer yet, she had to find her own entertainment.
For awhile, she borrowed books from the mom next to us who’d come well supplied with Dr. Suess books for her young daughter. Then she bugged me to get her soccer ball out of the car (the game was in Lorette – a little far to bike) and she played with that. Then, when she spotted three kids playing not far away, she ran off to join them. Before long, she’d offered up her soccer ball and they were making up soccer “rules” to imitate their older sisters.
Sometimes, I wish I had Maddie’s boldness. She has always assumed people will like her. Unlike our other 2 daughters, she has no qualms about marching up to unfamiliar children and engaging them in play. She happily borrows books from a strange mom, never worrying whether she is doing the “right” thing. She’ll speak to almost anyone, and only has very rare moments of shyness.
The thing is – when you go through life assuming people will like you, people usually DO. People are drawn to confidence and boldness. Maddie has always made friends easily, and so far I haven’t witnessed any kids being turned off by her straightforward approach. She’s not pushy or anything, just friendly. (No, she’s not perfect either – she WAS getting a little bossy with the soccer rules last night. 🙂
I wish, when I entered an unfamiliar place full of unfamiliar faces, that I could be as bold as she is. I wish I could walk in, confident that when I stopped to introduce myself to a stranger, that person would quickly become my friend.
It’s not that I’m particularly insecure. In fact, I think I come across as quite confident. It’s probably a little ironic, though, that I’m more comfortable speaking in front of a large crowd than I am speaking one-on-one with a stranger. That’s probably why people assume that I’m confident – because I’m a fairly natural public speaker.
I’m just not a great conversation starter. I don’t handle small talk well. I worry about not being interesting enough. I worry about tripping over my tongue and coming across as stupid. I rarely assume people will like me, and usually assume they’d rather be talking to someone else.
I work at it, because I know that I’m always glad when someone takes the time to engage me in conversation and so therefore assume they’d be glad when I do the same for them. It’s just not a very natural thing for me, so it makes me feel awkward. Funny, I know, that I’ve chosen a career in communications when I have trouble talking to strangers at a party for fear of tripping over my tongue. The thing is, I can communicate quite confidently and boldly when I KNOW what I’m communicating about. I’ve even talked quite comfortably with Prime Ministers, because I had a purpose (it’s kinda fun telling Prime Ministers what to do :-). I just have trouble when I’m forging unfamiliar territory and “small talk” is my only tool. To tell you the truth, some people probably think I’m snobby, because I come across as confident on the stage, and then I don’t engage well in conversation when I get off the stage.
It’s the same thing for blogs. When I go on the “popular” blogs – the ones with 25 or more comments on a regular basis – I rarely leave comments. I assume they’ve got enough interesting people surrounding them – they don’t need boring old me. If I make chatty comments, and trip over my tongue/keyboard, perhaps they’ll think “what is SHE doing on my blog?” And yet, I KNOW it’s silly, because I know how much I love and value comments, even if it’s just a simple acknowledgement that you’ve been here.
I suppose we all have elements of insecurity. Some people are amazed that I can get up in front of a crowd and speak without stumbling, and then I, in turn, am amazed at how comfortable they are chatting with strangers.
by Heather Plett | May 24, 2006 | Uncategorized
According to the Triple P quiz, I am passion-driven. The problem is not (as I stated before) that I don’t have passion, it’s that I’m not “purpose-driven”. No WONDER Rick Warren’s humongous best seller (that nearly everyone else thinks is the secret to true happiness) sits half-read on my shelf! 
Which p are you? (passion, purpose, or profit driven)
by Heather Plett | May 23, 2006 | Uncategorized
Well, I can strike one thing off the list.
That’s right, I got my nose pierced! On my birthday. I wanted to do this when I was 20, but then I chickened out and convinced myself I didn’t have the right nose for it. Lately, I started wanting it again, and now that I’m 40, it no longer matters whether my nose is “right” or not. That’s the beauty of being 40 – you get a little more comfortable with who you are and a little less concerned about fitting other people’s expectation of you.
I guess you could call it a mid-life crisis. At least it’s cheaper than a fast car, and less disruptive (not to mention stupid) than an affair. 🙂
by Heather Plett | May 21, 2006 | Uncategorized
I have the greatest sister in the world. She did 2 awesome things for my birthday. She posted this cool list of great moments we’ve shared. And she gave me these 40 things for my birthday… 
As she mentions in the list, we’ve been to 3 plays together in London and 3 in New York, so a Playbill bag is just the COOLEST!
Thanks, ccap!
