Today is one of those days when I wrestle with being “enough”.
It’s predictable, really. Whenever I have to deal with something that makes me feel less than enough (today it is that ugly beast called “finances”), my gremlins want to do a happy dance all over my failings and remind me of all of the other places I am less than enough.
Not good enough at keeping an ordered household.
Not good enough at making sure my children have matching socks to wear every day.
Not good enough at making money.
Not good enough at supporting my mom through cancer.
Not good enough at being an attentive mom and loving wife.
Fortunately though, I don’t have to be “good enough”. I just have to be “enough”.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” That’s my favourite Bible verse. I need truckloads of grace right now. Plus a reminder that God prefers it when I admit my weaknesses instead of trying to hide them. There’s more to work with when I’m not trying to prove myself.
I AM enough. I don’t have to be good enough. I don’t have to have all my finances in order, or fill my daughters’ drawers with clean and perfectly matched socks. I just have to show up every day, willing to accept grace, and willing to let God do something in my life.